LEARNING FROM MY MISTAKES

I problem solve when I lay my head down to sleep. Sometimes it's figuring something out, and then other times it's rehashing the day, which can be annoying and unproductive. But I have solved many problems and I guess that's why I keep doing it. The chief motivation is learning from my mistakes. To learn and grow and change is extremely important. And then waking up in the morning knowing exactly what to do is rewarding. I have woken up knowing an apology was due a friend. Then my thoughts won't be quiet until I apologize and clear the air. It may not be anything to the other person, but if my thoughts are consumed with it, I have to handle it.

Of course, there have been numerous times when I needed to seriously apologize for something. No matter how much I may dread a possible confrontation, an apology is the only solution. It's the only thing that will quiet my thoughts. Ultimately it's the one solution that makes sense to me. Apologies strengthen friendships and shows others that we care. They make us accountable for our actions, and that in itself, gives us the confidence to do it again. I feel relieved afterwards, because though it was uncomfortable, I can now live with myself.

This writing did not come easily today. In fact, I sat here thinking and writing and deleting for a very long time. And no, I did not have an apology to make recently. Sometimes a friend or family member will ask me if I was writing about such and such. Today was simply one thought, and one sentence growing into another thought, etc.

Thank you, good night and God Bless!    Aleta

"Worry is the interest paid by those who borrow trouble." George Washington